...child birth wouldn't be THAT bad. Really, it wasn't THAT BAD at all. Now, don't get me wrong, it's not something I want to do very often, but I'm actually looking forward to (hopefully) going through it again (and again after that). If anyone is interested, I'll share more details about labor in another post. I know that when I was pregnant, I loved reading and hearing POSITIVE birth stories from other new moms. I had had enough of the stories of three day long labors and emergency c-sections to give me nightmares for days.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
So, it's been 5 weeks since I gave birth to Grayson and I feel the need to get some things off my chest. In trying to "keep it real" here on my blog I want to share some thoughts, things that were surprising to me about child birth and after, with those who may be interested...particularly new moms-to-be.
I wasn't aware that...
...recovering from child birth would be so gross. I won't elaborate...it was just icky, really icky.
...breastfeeding wouldn't come easy for me. It hurt and my little one had some major power!
...I would feel like such a failure when after 4 weeks of trying (and practically starving my baby due to underproduction), I gave up on breastfeeding. I still cry about it. I keep thinking that I could've done more...I was lazy...I'm a horrible mom.
...what people say about the emotional rollercoaster following child birth is completely TRUE! I bawled my eyes out a handful of times (mainly in the shower where no one could see) just because. I'm not a "crier" by nature, but man let me tell you, I am now!
...I would be SO tired during the first week home from the hospital. I even had my mother here to help, but trying to nurse every two hours can really take a lot out of you. I was beyond exhausted.
...a little baby boy can shoot pee straight across the room! Our Aura (washable) paint has paid off in the nursery big time!
...they can also shoot poop (not as far as the pee, but still) and spit-up too. How does one get poo out of cashmere? Note to self: don't wear cashmere while changing baby.
...my stomach, after 5 weeks, would still look like a deflated water balloon and stretch marks can appear AFTER child birth. Just when I thought I was in the clear, BAM there they are.
...boobs can leak even after you've stopped breastfeeding completely. Lovely.
...the maternal bond that everyone talks about may not kick in right away (and you may feel guilty for not feeling it).
...I could love another human being as much as I love my little boy.